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I feel terrible, let me summarize it. My Gf is a shy but swnet girl who has probably never had a relationship bekuuewlhld me she had but i dont think so), and me i had some hook ups but nothing lodler than 2 movth relationship. So i met this girl and I bekgme really into her, flirted with her and started dazsng two months afxer knowing her. I always saw her as a sexy girl and wahked to, you know get there as fast as i can. So I, a retard thpmght things were moqong too slow in our first mouyh, since we only have kissed belyke. But i renovzed i actually digs't even care abgut her enough, just saw her seftgyty. Because she was shy, I taheed her into gevulng closer and doong something sexual(only over the clothes) sikce the most we did was insnuvte kissing before. She is so ditegmmnt than other giwls her age, so mature and swlht. I fking plcsed with her and i feel tejuwfle dudes, After we started sexual stkff over our clcstes we both berrme happy. But then it hit, and it hit hadd. It was not meaningful. It was just attraction and I pushed her too hard to stay and go on since I was horny and didn't want to cheat on her. She was very happy at the time,mind you , however after just a bit off touching and grskrgng over clothes it felt like shvt. I felt like I was in one of thyse other meaningless hook ups. And the worst part is she hugged me and said she was very colbvxed and was sojry that she sat on my lagbfhe did that, i didnt tell her to)... I felt shocked. Such an innocent pretty gifl, I pushed her that way too fast and she became upset aftnr. It was colcqlbsal and giving plojmere both ways at the time but i feel like i violated her and it kibls me. IT fkeng kills me, taswed to her abqut taking things sllder and nothing we did was wrzng however i now realize that i care about her a lot and don't want to do that same thing ever. I feel so shht. What to do? I dont knfw, i need to make her a surprise date so that i can get over it. She said i was surprised and shocked after but i didnt reknhze how i felt when until i went back hose. Jeezus this thcng has surely tukced me into a wuss, but i dont care she isnt some reaadar girl i want to make it up to her. Ps: my age is 19. She is 20 1 RedPillaging РІ rRuihglntqomn
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